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I'm feeling  a bit blue today.  I don't feel as sad as I've fought with in the past, but it still bothers me when I do.  

I've stopped planning the wedding and stuff, it just doesn't feel right and I was driving myself crazy getting excited and worked up over it.  Guessing when he'd ask.  So I've back burnered it.  James said he's going to ask me soon, but every holiday that passes I get nearly anxious over it.  So instead of turning in circles I'm just relaxing.  

This is not why I'm blue today, I'm blue today because I ate too many hotdogs and cupcakes and I have a stomach ache.  I'm blue today because I didn't do any cleaning or studying.  I'm blue today because I didn't get enough sleep last night so I'm cranky.

But things are good.  School is going well, except for the perpetual feeling of being behind.  The bathroom is almost done (I know, I know, I say that all the time, but this time it's true.  The sink is going in tonight, I hope.  All the wainscotting is up, now just trim, baseboard, painting that and hanging up the mirror, shower rake, etc.)  And the weather's been nice.  It's not spring yet, so I'm expecting winter, part deux, but it can't last for much longer.

Life's good.  I'm just bored.