Happy New Year, and all the trimmings.

New Years Eve was pleasant, albeit uneventful.  I'm sorry, I couldn't think of a better word than uneventful.  I felt like going somewhere and doing something, but we stayed home, and it was nice.  We got into bed at about 11:45 and watched the ball drop, told each other happy new year, kissed, and held hands as we watched something else for a bit.  It was really nice to start the new year with love and a full heart.  It was good.

We haven't done a whole lot since, well, that's a bit of a lie.  We went to Fairfield to see the rest of the family missed at Christmas because of health and weather.  Herb took us on a drive to Solder mountain so I could see it, it's really pretty.  The guy is strange.  I can never tell if he likes me, but when he was taking Jim to their land to view the house plan he invited me then James, then when he was going to pick up Kate and Alex at the mountain he asked if I wanted to go for a ride.  We talked about Scifi movies and books.  I need to brush up. 

We got to hang out with Jim, he gave us gift certificates for christmas and he signed my card "Dad", it warmed my wee little heart.  I love him.  The only problem was we got to the cabin after dark, so it was freezing out (literally 3 degrees) and he had a fire going.  I sat next to the fire and my brain shut off.  Kate and Herb came with the boys shortly after and both boys sat with me in the recliner, so it was warm and snuggly.  It was tough, I tell you.

Now today I'm cleaning and rearranging the house.  It's fun because I feel homey....  I enjoy the feeling of belonging.

I've been feeling the stress of planning a wedding and am trying to separate trying to placate people from what we want.  In the end it's our day, so I need to be kind, hear what other people are saying, think about how I would feel about it, talk about it with James, then make a decision.  Not just go with something because everyone else thinks it's better....  Sigh.  There are a lot of imposing personalities present.  Too bad James and I are so low key.  But I think in the end we can rise above....

Anyway, that's that for a moment.  I think I had another direction to go with this today but am distracted by sun and TV so I'm going to wander off.....